Almost

It has been a week since we got a call from Abby's about a birth mother located in another state. It was almost too good to be true! We learned about the birth parents and the due date of 5/12/2009!!!! After talking about it, we decided to have the coordinator present us to the birth mother while we tried to come up with the financing. Unfortunately we were not able to gather all the money with out using our vehicle titles for collateral. We had to make a very important decision - the time was not right for us to consider opening our home to this baby. On a plus side, the coordinator had not been able to contact the birth mother yet!

There were 2 days filled with stress and anxiety - I was a mess at work! But as soon as we made the choice to back out, it was like a huge weight had been lifted off my shoulders. However, there was also a HUGE sense of loss.

As we work through this, I will try to keep an on going record.

Waiting, waiting, waiting.......

Well, we are now in the waiting mode. We could get a phone call at any time. If Bailey had her way. it would have happened yesterday. She is a bit jealous because her friend's baby brother will be here in August. She just doesn't understand that they have been waiting for a year.

ALL DONE!!

Well, we finally completed the last component of the home study!! The CPR class!! I scanned and emailed the certificates to our social worker last night. She emailed today say they would work! - we won't get our actual cards for 2 weeks.

We told Bailey the other night about the baby we weren't chosen for. I really didn't want to but Patrick thought we should. She was pretty sad and upset. But he explained to her that God didn't want us to have this particular baby and that there was one out there that would be even more perfect for us! We just have to continue to have faith!

Bummed

We found out last Friday morning that there was a birthmother looking for a couple. Because we had marked no on our application for something, the Iowa Agency did not call us. When I called then Friday afternoon, I was a few hours too late....they had already set up a conference call with another couple. We corrected the information in our application. The social worker said that if for some reason something happened and the conference call did not go well, she would call us.

Well, I called them yesterday after school.....the conference call was successful - a match had been made. A little frustrating and am bummed, but this one was not meant to be ours! It will happen!!! We just havae to have faith!

License is here!!

Wow!!! When I got home today, Patrick had already gotten the mail. Of course, he had not looked at it! Our Foster License was in the mail!!! That means it is almost nothing but a waiting game. We still have to do the infant/child CPR (scheduled for next week - finally!!) I am hoping that because we have our license, that means our fingerprints are back.

We have to actually hang the license inside the cabinet on the door but at least we have it and it is in the cabinet!

I have told Patrick, I would wait for 2 years - I am hoping that is not even close to the amount of time we have to wait.

Still not done - getting frustrated!

We had a chance to proofread our updated home study over the weekend....man, they need things worded strangely! The social worker is still waiting on our fingerprint clearances to come back. We are still trying to get the infant/child CPR class taken. I thought we were all set at Anderson Hospital but they informed me that there classes are only for those giving birth at their hospital....do I smell infertile discrimination? Not pushing that envelope just yet!!!

It is getting a bit frustrating. I will take partial responsibility for not completing everything last fall. Things are not falling to place as quickly or as easily as the last time....could this mean a much longer wait than before?

It has been one of those days!!!

Abby's

Today we finally heard back from Abby's One True Gift. I was getting a bit worried because we had sent a few emails plus out portfolio to them but had not heard back. I am relieved to know that they have everything and are just waiting on the home study.

We were discussing today what we were going to do if all of a sudden we got a phone call in April saying, "Come pick up your child." Mentally, emotionally, I thing we are ready. However, financially and house-wise we still have a way to go. Elliott's room need to be cleaned out, Bailey's things moved in there and Bailey's room set up for a child. Oh well.....when it happens, we will be ready. Bailey we had less than 48 hours notice!!!